Sunday, November 08, 2009
Okay, I have made a point that no matter what,I shall stay strong and positive...
Just hope that people who read my previous entry, don't get affected by my writings. To me, it's just a way I vent out my anger and emotions. Thanks but now I really feel much better. :)
joreen121 at 11:40 AM
Friday, November 06, 2009
I need some fresh AIRI really got to say Thank You to Lydia for the wonderful room she booked at Changi Beach Resort. The room was probably one of the most comfortable rooms I ever stayed! Totally felt the sense of happiness, calmness and chillness during that 2 days. (Maybe the sideview of the big pool really helps with the therapy..haha)
Well, what I'm going to say here is that be it travelling or staying various nights with friends, it is one of the best and happiest thing I do in my life. Things ain't going fine for me these days. Melancholy is starting to overwhelm my emotions. I have no idea but I started to realise my awkardness towards people except some for a few ones whom I really behaved in my real self. And the awkardness is getting more and more obvious..
Problem is the few ones in whom I'm more comfortable with nowsadays does not really include people that I'm closest with, I mean most closest.
One large part that contributes to my melancholy should be my relationship with mum. Had a recent big quarrel with her last few weeks ago and it was so bad that I broke down for a few hours. Some people might not know about it ba..I really don't want to talk about this but there's no suitable channels that I can pour out my thoughts and feelings except here or maybe a diary perhaps? For the chengs who had noticed my swollen restless eyes during that overnight stay at changi, yes that's the day which the quarrel occurred.
I really hate it when she started to compare me with someone else's daugther and at the same time badmouthing and complaining to her so-called "good friend" of hers. Their bad impression of me is really that bad that whenever her friend called our house phone and I happened to pick up, her tone would suddenly change when she knows it's me. And not to forget her daughter's poker face to me even when I smiled and say thank you to her...omg!
Firstly I'm not somebody's daughter. Don't make your friend judge me with all the things you said to your friend about me. Am I really that bad? Did you ever tell that "good friend" of urs about the things your daughter did to help you? Ha, I bet not..
Another thing that I really dislike is to see people who spend money like water and do not understand the meaning of savings even when their income's not that fantastic. Sadly, I'm somehow one of them. Feeling a sense of guilt right after I agreed to the trip to phuket this end of month. Somehow I know going for a vacation with friends will really lifts up my spirit and plus able to getaway from this boring island and enjoy my freedom in another country. I know I can save up the money after a few months of working but yet this moment of time, my account haven't really reach my "standard expectation" sum. It was saddening when actually mum mentioned about borrowing money from me to pay for some of her stuffs and even asked my sis to borrow money from me if she wants to make a denture and I'm unable to fork up the money for them like I
Whatever so, the trip is confirmed and air tickets were bought so now my strategy was to save as much as I can during the trip (economical I called). So me and my chengs actually stress out together to do as much as many researches as we can for the trip as if it's some big project of ours. We even have debates about which 2 hotels is better! .Haha..below are the screenshots of the about 40-50% of our "research" mails in my inbox..
okay, that's all...feel so good after pouring all my thoughts and feelings..
xoxo
joreen121 at 1:10 PM
Monday, October 26, 2009
Sometimes I wonderDaniel Merriweather - Red
And I'm alright
Standing in the streetlights here
Is this meant for me
My time on the outside is over
We don't know how you're spending
all of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here
Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red
No sympathy
When shouting out is all you know
Behind your lies
I can see the secrets you don't show
We don't know how you're spending
All of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here
Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red
When - you took something perfect
And painted it red
You take the best things from
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need
Oooh, you take the best things from me
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need
Oohhhh
Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it "red"
When - you took something perfect
And painted it red
(repeat)
You took something perfect
And painted it red
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Sometimes I wonder if Mum realise her words to me are so hurtful that it nearly breaks my heart just like the song lyrics did..
Can she just give a damn to all the things that I have done for her for once please...
I'm so disappointed in her.
joreen121 at 3:28 PM
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
The Fray - Never say neverIt may not be the latest song but another good song from them... :)
joreen121 at 10:23 PM
Friday, September 25, 2009
Time to clean up these spider webs...Hoohoo, it's been long since I blogged. I don't know if anyone has the same thoughts as me but I really think as we grow older and more stuffs going on around us, we seems not to bother about blogging our life anymore.
Well, some of my friends already know where I am now. Yes, I'm in SIM on both purposes and I guess I will stay put in this school
At the same time, opportunities keep coming towards me when I just want to take a break from design. I don't know how to explain but it seems that people know I'm free from design and wanted me to do stuffs for them. My previous client, other design ppl and friends just all coming at once. I know it will be really good if I started out my freelance career in the beginnning but seriously to be frank, right now I'm afraid of more commitments whereby I'm still have to handle a full-time job, learning yoga and later on going for rehearsals for a musical at the same time.
Alright, talking about my cliques, just so happy that Hart finally steps out of her comfort zone, from Pharmacy Asst to being a Patient Service Associate in TKS Hosp. I believe it would a job full of good prospects if she works hard enough down the road, afterall being civil servant can be quite a good life sometimes in terms of financial and welfare. And Eh eh finally graduated with a diploma and so happy that he knows where he wants to be go forward for his career.
Oh ya, more things going on too. I have also made some new "friends" (thanks to my MUM) and new colleagues..well, life's like that isn't it? You just can't finish talking...haha..
Oh, recently I'm just totally hook up with electropop music. Oh man it's serious addictive!! Music ppl like Pet Shop Boys, Little Boots, La Roux, Lady Gaga..etc OMG, my mp3 player is so full of their music..
Haha..furthermore, Hart and I went the 2nd time to Singapore Science Center to complete our journey around every corner of the center...great experience too..Will talk about more in a later time...
Oh yes, one more thing, My FAV. Fashion Thursday is coming back with project runway and ANTM..watched it yesterday..love it!! Furthermore, think I'm going to chase the series in FRINGE, miss some of its episodes...what a great series with mysteries, thrillers and investigations..woo!
Okay, think I said too much, got to go back watch my episodes again and meet my chengs later on (haha no work today)..ciao!
joreen121 at 3:39 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I'm so going to Singapore Science Centre - AGAIN!Alright, I know everyone has this perception of Singapore Science Centre as a boring stupid educational place for the primary kids and teachers. People may even mix Discovery Centre and Science Centre together for worst! Well, I can't blame all because I have never thought of visiting it until recently when my ultimate sense of boreness overwhelmed me. So glad to persuade Hart in accompanying me though she was at first skeptical about how "fun" science centre would appeal to her...haha
I know the below may make you feel a bit advertorial but it's true fun and great discovery...Was regretted not to bring my camera along with me so you guys have to endure the least quality of the photos we took using our bottom-grade of <2 megapixels camera phone...
We started out paying the basic fee of $6 to visit the essential discoveries one can get..People don't be fooled by the da vinci exhibition TV ad...because you have to pay a whole $15 just to visit that part of the gallery ( not the rest of Science Centre) that perhaps can only take you just an hour time wondering around. :P
First discovery- illusion science
some of the photos we took..although not that fantastic because we both were attracted and mesmerized by all form of illusions before we realised it's time to take some pictures...
P.S: that hole that Hart look through in that first photo was damn smelly can..lol! but don't have one huh!..it's still fun...
the first part nearly took us about one hour's time. and that are I think 9 more parts which we haven't fully explore yet??!!
Second discovery - Mathematics Science
Not really that interesting (for me lah) because here it talked about the nature of maths and some wonders maths can do...but it still took us about 45mins wondering around....
Okay, don't vomit to see us in macho bodies...hahaha..weird lah to have formulas written on a bodybuilder's body that stood out of no way so we might as well snap some memories with us...
Here's come a peek...dunnoe why this illusion ended up in mathematics science area though...
hahaha..over-rated illusion...people all know about this trick already lah because of my shooting angle!!...haha
Third Discovery - some primary / basic science that somehow related to how media works...
That section was all about basic science stuffs, like life science, basic physics like sound and light, senses...blah blah...
Then we were attracted by one area which demonstrates how media / control room works and there were also big cameras that capture us on the TV screen..so you know lah, starstucked...lol!
The light waves section which the light cast 3 colour of our shadows...so disco so disco..~~
Forth Discovery - Ispace / IT
WAH, I tell you this is the favourite section of ours...spend like most of our time here and it's big and futuristic!!!
Nothing can describe it but it's as though you have time-travel to like the year 2100?? with all the future technology and all and gave a "WOW'' with every single thing you see? And ya, it also gave me a feel of the harry potter's magical world??
With a lift that can talk to you and a MJ's "Billie Jeans" coloured pathway....that's just the beginning~
here's the ispace passes we have on our hands...
some enlarged Iphone applications...
Then, there are also screens that sense your hand as a mouse so you can navigate using just your hand...
hahhaa....PlayStation / Xbox corner...see me so serious..gamer leh~
huh! Eh eh and Hart said I act one child only ar?...huh
Hart!
her turn as gamer
Okay, here comes snow white's stepmother's mirror..haha..no, the mirror can't talk but can only cast flowers around when you move your hands within the mirror space..
hahaha...Biostools it called..can analyse your poo and give you healthy advice and can even measure your weight when you sat on the toilet seat....
Lots and lots more interesting things..there are also demostration rooms where you can involved in it like the virtual conference interview and you being one of the applicants...answer the most correct answers out of 3 and you are hired!..LOL
and and and also a virtual conceirge which can plan your ideal holidays and entertainments...cool~
here it ends...with our happy faces and 2 entrance stamps....
4 hours of entertainment and not yet finish exploring...YES ...Science centre is THAT BIG!! We haven't explore the marine science, neuroscience and Quantum Physics areas and more~..
SO GOING TO SCIENCE CENTRE AGAIN~!!
joreen121 at 10:55 PM
Friday, August 07, 2009
You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.
You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
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unbelievable true...so true in every sentence...
took a test in HERE
try it yourself too, hope it's as true as mine...
joreen121 at 2:00 PM